I would also like to repost two of my favorite writings throughout this past year. The first one was written within a week of starting my website when my son had a set-back and was admitted into the hospital again.
September 13, 2013 "One Step Forward, Ten Steps Back"
My son is currently in the psychiatric ward of a hospital. He went to the ER on Wednesday and they kept him for suicidal ideation.
This is progress. It doesn't seem like it to the average onlooker, but he didn't hurt himself, he just reached out to me and said, "I can't do it, just not anymore."
He told me he didn't want help, but he reached out to me. He said, "I don't wanna start over. I just wanna finish," yet, he reached out, listened, and drove himself to the hospital for help.
Progress is measured in many different ways. My son wrote this is his journal a few years ago, "A state of depression envelopes over and it feels as though all progress is lost. Although, I realize that progress is measured by my ability to cope. And therefore my progress grows."
His progress is growing everyday. He is only nineteen, he is so young and has only experienced a small portion of life. He thinks he can never get better, yet he is already better than he was a year ago.
Mental health is complicated. One step forward can result in ten steps back, or one step forward can just be one step forward.
The next blog was written just one day later.
September 14, 2013 "Perception"
Perception according to Wikipedia " . . . is the organization, identification, and interpretation of sensory information in order to represent and understand the environment."
Your perception is dissimilar to mine. The sensory information you process is unlike mine, so our perception of what we see and feel is different. If you have a mental illness, perception can be skewed. Those with a mental illness often feel locked in a world without a key to their future. They see their life disappear, while those around them move toward a fulfilling life.
"Life awaits, meaningful friendships, inspiring work, independence, your place in the world. They’re all waiting, just outside your door. Now imagine if that door was locked. No key, no side exits, you’re trapped - while everybody else blossoms around you. That’s what it feels like growing up with a mental illness." Perception, TNT
Find your key and change your perception.